First day of Year 2.

It felt like I'm kinda old now... it's been a year i've entered poly life.

Year 1 ended great, year 2 started bad.

Awkwardness filled the room during apel lol .....

and i've got lots of worries which i thought by talking to you will turn out better.

i should have know that your reply would be like that.

thank goodness I have C, she can understand how i feel ....

i just feel so sad that you will never understand how i feel.

lets just hope things turn out better.

Reminisce.

Last update was 29 Sep 2010.

It's been so long I've blogged. Was bloghopping to someone's blog then I saw my name under their links column.

Shall have a short update before i rush out.

Life's been great, these 2 months i hadn't been working.

Just spending my life, surrounding with my dearest and girlfriends.

And yes I'm still with Ivan, and 1 more month to our 3rd year.

Why am I holding on.. Becus I know somehow he's worth it.

Like now, he's cherishing me as much as i'm cherishing him too.

Lots of changes to girlfriends, esp. to the quarrels we had.

Looking back the photos, it brought back alot of memories we had in the past.

But still, I hope somehow we will stay in contact with her.

I'll never forget the look on her face when she asked me to accompany her when she was down.

Poly life has been very fun, the friends i've met.. You guys know who you are even though you guys don't know I do blog. (in the past)

It's like I can talk to you guys.. Like i've known you for years.

Despite some quarrels la but ... it's so sad that we might not be in the same class again.

Gonna prepare and go out now, shall update more in the future.
Bye!

INHK

Happy 19th Birthday, my dearest :)

I hope you're happy when I surprised you by waiting for you to end your lessons eh?
I hope the smile on your face that night when you saw me is from the bottom of your heart.

You never know how happy I was when I saw you smile so sweetly.

Sorry when I became abit emotional when we were on car back home, becus I thought you felt uncomfortable with me around with your friends.

And I felt so loved when you asked for birthday kiss.

HAHAHHA (-.-)

Just to tell you, I really love you, henduohenduo,

I thought i'm not affected..

After i listened to 丁噹 - 你為什麼說謊, suddenly just got so..

on the 17th, you told me "I cant countdown with you again, tmr duty.."

I felt so sweet, cus you remembered that it had been so long.

So, stupidly, I thought you might celebrate 19th with me on the actual date, where you're having off day.

Who knows... you told me just now about all you did on 19th.

What I did was tonning at chalet becus I dont want to spend it alone, you get it?

20th, today. You told me "We celebrate on monday instead k.."

But you fell asleep last night outside, today wake up ard 3+ you just go out eat with them..

Apologies? No.

You say to celebrate on 23rd. How trustworthy are you?

No more empty promises.. ke yi mah?

Why cant I feel loved..

Too dumb too stupid too retarded too whatever-that-is-bad.

WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IM SUCHA BITCH LAH FYOU.

whenever you're not around.

Somehow I wished you could read this small space here and understand what ive been through.

It may seemed kinda.. "Oh man she's starting these craps again.." but thats really what i feel.

Are you really that busy till you cant pick up your phone? Other days understandable.. Today?

When you're not driving today..

"Where's the jiana who feels so happywappy whenever thrs __?"

I really want to hug you and cry it out.

you're amazing, just the way you are.

I wish you're here with me, cus tmr im having stupid POM exammmmmm.

It started fine this afternoon where i began with the remaining questions for FA, then some chapters for POM.. and hehe and ended up playing my itouchie and singing.

I wish you're here but you'll neglect me by either sleeping/fm-ing.

Not being sad today becus the exam feeling is more than that.

But still.. I'm bothered about the fact that you told me you're not meeting me cus you'll be packing, but there you are.. outside happy w them.

And im stuck in this space here.

It's 1158pm now and I told myself to start recapping my POM at 11pm :)

Pray hard i'll wake up on time for exam and do WELL tmr.

Okay it's 1200 am now i'm going back to POM!

im hungry :/

忽冷忽热

you're always the one i think of before i sleep.

you're always the one i think of when i wake up.

always, everyday.

you're always so busy.

im having exams next 3days, thats why i told you im not meeting you tmr.

i thought i'll be the one telling you this and you'll be like "Huh.. okay :( nvm lucky i got off day! "

But i heard "I not meeting you tmr cus ... but you still can come.." from you.

So now it's my turn to huh okay... nvm lucky you got off day.

im so fucking paranoid.

seriously sometimes i just NEED THAT.

ITS BEEN SO FUCKING LONG IVE HEARD IT EVEN THOUGH I TOLD YOU BEFORE AND WE QUARRELED THEN YOU SMS TELL ME THAT BUT STILL ITS NOT FROM YOUR HEART.

FUCK LAH SOMETIMES IM JUST SO FUCKED UP BITCH.

am i so not worth those?

am i so lousy..

STAND THERE AND WATCH ME BURN.

I JUST CANT OMG THIS SUCKS TO THE MAXIMUM MAX.

there's always gna be that one person, that no matter how many times they hurt you, you're never gna let them go.

you're that.